I have been with probably 10 or 15 guys I guess. All but 2 within a 4 year period that started in my mid 40's. I hadn't been with a guy until I was about 45. If I was professionally diagnosed, I would bet money the professionals would label me as straight with sexual novelty seeking behaviors. I am going to, for the sake of argument, assume you don't know anything about alcoholism/addiction or recovery from these. I have been in recovery for most of my life. Addiction is sort of an all encompassing thing. It isn't about drinking too much or smoking too much crack. It is a emotional disorder… Read more

It was about 4 years ago... It was late and I opened up craigslist figuring I would jerk myself off and go to sleep. I saw a new post pop up and responded. I figured we might jerk off together and fall asleep. I did that a lot. I didn't meet up with guys anymore. But he begged for me to meet him. He was a business man at a hotel in Raleigh. He was booked on an 6am flight to Chicago. He had a stressful week and was hoping to have an adventure before going back home to the family. He had a few specific requests. That I walk into the room without knocking, Pull my pants down to my ankles, sit… Read more

Random thoughts... 1) yea, i like sucking cock. If there is chemistry. I only like it with straight guys. Men with a wife, family and careers. Men so bored with their mundane lives they are willing to risk everything for a moment of relief. I like to take a man to the edge and hold him there. All of his energy focused on a single point. Over the edge he falls, squirting his little prize in my mouth and throat. Ever bit of it swallowed away to some deep secret place inside of me. It is a powerful feeling. It is like sharing a tiny taste of his death. Like a vampire who hasn't fed in an eternit… Read more

I get bored with porn. I find craigslist personals, I enjoy the interaction and the emails. I find men much more responsive than women. I find other "straight guys" who are having the same thoughts. It is all just innocent play until.... I decide I need to try more...… Read more

What else would you do with my wife 06:38 it depends on my mood. Perhaps the three of us could have a nice dinner together. After dinner, I could make you sit in a corner and make out with your wife for a while... seductively, slowly, feeling her up and making our way to the bed. Once she is comfortable and dripping wet, I can remove her clothes and make out with her some more. Sucking her tits and licking her pussy until she is needing to cum. 13:55 then I'll stop and ask her to let me tie her hands and feet to the 4 corners of the bed. very gently and seductively, she will be so heated u… Read more

I feel like I have always been too much in my head when it comes to sex. I want someone to play with like a toy. To get me out of my head. I think I need a sexual pet. Someone to completely own and objectify. We may hang out in public where you will act free. It will be your responsibility to behave as my equal and to keep secret the fact of what you really are to me. When you have done something that displeases me, I will take you to our little play space. You will do as I say... I may have to tie you up when you don't please me. I may be impossible to please this time, there may… Read more